Flashing Lights

We’ve recently started using a baby monitor for Olive when we’re in a different room than she. It not only lets us hear her, but there are also lights on the device that allows us to see the intensity of the sound coming from her end in the event the sound in our room masks her monster noises. The more lights, the louder her sounds. During the night, we usually keep the monitor on my side since I’m the feeding machine who must feed the hungry monster when she awakens. I see lights. I (or hubby) run to get her. I feed. No more lights on the baby monitor since she’s now in my room being fed, right? Um, no. A couple of times I’ve had the crap scared out of me because I’m feeding the monster when all of a sudden there are flashing lights and sounds coming from the baby monitor. There is no baby in the room with the speaker. No music or TV on. Just a room with zero humans in it. Now, I’m not afraid of the dark, but when I see those flashing lights as Olive is chowing down next to me in my room, I am briefly afraid of what is in the dark in that room. What is making the monitor go off!? My heart thumps faster for a moment and I try to concentrate on the monster in my room. She is awfully adorable as she kicks her legs out while she’s eating. She’s done and I burp her and come to realize I have to go into the room, where it is dark and the flashing lights and noises are coming from. Holy hell. I’m an adult for crying out loud, but yet I’m wide-eyed and walking slowing towards the dark scared like a 10 year old girl. I hold my breath, put the monster down to sleep and swiftly walk out of there back to safety in my own, warm bed. This is ridiculous of me. I laugh to myself and start heading back to sleep and realize that I just left my baby in the dark room where the flashing lights and the noises were coming from. I hope this event is no indication of what kind of mom I’m going to be.